Apple Juice

Everywhere i look for love i see you

Every man i've ever begged to love me

I was really staring at your face

mirroring what the little girl in me desperately cried for

what she still does

But he is not you dad

and no matter where i turn

i will always feel the deepest depths of loneliness

in the vast black void i feel in my soul

Right where I know your puzzle piece fits

where its always been missing

I wish I could say i'll be okay

i'll do it without what you refused to give me

That drink of water I'm so thirsty for

that you always teased me with

and still do

But, I know that I will never be okay

I will never be whole

My heart will always be broken

searching for you in every person

who will never love me

either